I hate myself.

I hate myself for being so easily influenced by others.

I hate myself for sinking so deep into self-delusion, I can't seem to find a way out.

I hate myself for being lazy, stubborn, and unwilling to try.

I hate myself for being an ass to my parents, especially my mom, but I still think she deserves it.

I hate myself for always thinking that my mom single-handedly ruined my life, because it always seems like there's nothing I can do about it, and even if there was, it would take a very long time and a lot of effort and I don't know if it's even worth it.

I hate myself for being so suicidal, although I still see a point in it.

I hate myself for having such a guarded heart.

I hate myself for not sticking to what works for me, and I hate myself for always wanting to "be someone else I'm not".

I hate myself for being scared of what other people really think of me.

I hate myself for always wanting to do things perfectly.

I hate myself for not seeking guidance earlier in my life.

I hate myself for not having any sense of faith in people, although I'm really trying.

I hate myself for being so affected by my mom's lecturing when I was younger. Now I just feel so angry and weak thinking about it, cuz it seems like no matter what I do, I'm still a loser.

I hate myself for always thinking that I'm a loser.

I hate myself for not having consistency in WHATEVER I DO. ANYTHING, WHATEVER, YOU NAME IT.

I hate myself for not being as hardworking as I should/could/wanted to.

I hate myself for needing so little.

I hate myself for always being stuck on the same old questions over and over and over again.

I hate myself for not doing ANYTHING about what I've mentioned above.

I hate myself for thinking that I spent a huge amount of my youth doing something I didn't really want.



And I also hate myself for not realising all of this much earlier.